raise the standard

Today was one of those days that I could really, really, really think. I was out early(11am with nobody rushing me to go out is kind of early) and headed to town. Took my time walking to do what I needed to do, and was done in just 5 minutes. I told myself not to walk indoors if possible because I wanted to soak up the sun as much as I could. I love the sun THAT much. I told myself not to listen to the music either, just to listen to the hustle of life around town.

Sitting on the steps just staring into the not-so-open river, it just felt as if I haven't done that in a really long time. Sitting on a bench, looking up towards the buildings, I wonder if anybody is as weird as I am.

I realise that since the last time I did something like that, my self-esteem level has plunged down. It might appear as though I am happier now, which I really believe I am. I guess happiness and self esteem has got 2 different meanings.

I really know that I am happier now. I am much closer to my girlfriends now, I can just pick up the phone and say, "I'm hungry" without them getting irritated at me. (okay just not too often.) I can go out whenever I want, reasonably of course. I don't have exams to worry about anymore too! Ultimately, it's the closeness I have with my mother now which really enhances my true happiness inside. It has been my wish to have my mother as my best friend, which is who she is right now. (:

I thought about all the things that she have said, all the knowledge that she has imparted on me. It carves who I am today. The girl who has so much expectations in life.

What really matters in someone that will really click with me is actually the kind of thinking they have. The mindset, their goals in life. Once I meet someone who has got similar thinking like mine, I am totally into that person. I somehow don't find it often to meet someone who enjoys looking at places like I do. Admiring the beauty of anything and everything.

Oh please bring me to The Interlace's show house...
http://www.theinterlacecondo.com/


Well, it's now time to catch up with the old old friends that I've been saying, "we'll meet up after I'm done with exams!" I got to live up to my word for this.

And, I'm not allowing myself to go on a crash diet. It is just not healthy, considering the amount of "strenous" activites that I do daily. Eating is good, food is best, I must continue eating.



Love,
Me