An Angel in My Life

I've been in and out of jobs since my first job in 2007. Fortunately, I don't regret any of my actions even a little bit. Most of my jobs were my own choice, and I quit of my own free will too. I guess, it's because my main concern of having a job wasn't about the money. I always believed that the money earned is just a plus point. The most important thing about having a job, part time job to be exact, is to gain the experience and to find out what kind of career path you want to take in the future. Apart from that, is to fill up your time instead of hanging around doing nothing. =)

After 2 years of working here and there, I know for sure that I want to work with people. I can't stand data entry, I need to be outside running around. I don't mind office work, as long as I get to meet clients, like how I worked as a PA for a house agent. It was really nice.

I still have a lot more to learn, a lot more to find out. It doesn't matter if I get through a job interview or not, always have the mindset of, "it's okay. it's not my loss." There are tons of other jobs out there and one day, I know I will settle down with one I really like.


That aside, I know it is crucial to have fun in whatever I do, so that I don't end up hating it and my time will just fly by.


Actually, sharing about my work experiences has got its link with something else rather important in my life. Like being in and out of jobs, I was in and out of relationships. Not as much as in and out of jobs, of course. Similarly, I take the opportunity to know new people and to gain experiences with them. So that I know what I really want in my life. So that I know what kind of person I would like to be with.


You. You have been so wonderful to me. Apart from the fact that you're the only tall guy that I've 'dated' before, you're just great. Never in my life have I met someone like you. It has only been 2 weeks since I met you, and I've found out a lot about you already. I know there's a lot more for me to know, but I am really liking what I'm hearing thus far. It is important that whatever you tell me comes from the heart, and I see that you are true. (:

I am really liking the way you think, especially because it doesn't clash with mine. I also like that you're secretive to a certain extent, but you take risks when needed. You give me the freedom that I've always wanted but at the same time you assure me that I have someone to fall back on. You just give me the perfect mix. It's a wonderful feeling.

I'm so full of praises for you, and I'm writing them on the net! :D

I believe that we will go far together as friends, and more than friends later in the near future. I am really looking forward to seeing you again! And you can pick me and twirl me around again too. =)



Love,
Me.

Another year older; Another year wiser

Finally 18.

This year is exceptionally different. This is the age that I've been looking forward to for a long time, the age that I'd love to be in for a long time. To be considered as an adult (in some instances if not 21), to be given the freedom in the hands of the law, to be able to watch M18 movies, to enrol for my long awaited car license, and unfortunately, to pay adult price for everything else.

Falling on the first day of exam, and going through a breakup, not the best situation to be celebrating my birthday.

Point is, the day is long gone.


When the clock strikes midnight on 19th November, it felt as though I'm living a new life. I feel I'm no longer being dragged through life; I feel that I can finally act my age. Living life to the fullest, as they say.


Getting out of a 5 year relationship at the current moment seems to be the most responsible action that I have done. I am sorry if you are reading this. But I do feel more of myself right now. For the past few months, I've wanted to get my life on track. With you in my life, I didn't know what track I was one. Which track I should take. Because I always had to think of you, and not of myself. Nothing I did was for only me. At least, I thought so.

It isn't easy to go to higher education, with all the pressure and the costs it take. Tuition fees, daily expenses, heavy debts. Not really something that is easy for a then 17-year-old.



It has been a week since an event which I really met people. Felt like a camp, since the last camp I went to was almost 2 years ago. A seminar to teach people how to have a millionaire mind. Haha. It was nice to get to know more people that I worked with. After years of feeling pushed into the dark, I finally felt like I was someone. Instead of that timid girl afraid of talking.

Meeting people of all walks of life. It makes me realise how much I have missed in my life. All the fun and laughter that I've missed. Through the massive life changing activities. I don't regret my actions that make me where I am right now, just that I feel lucky that I haven't went too far. I can still re-enact what should have happened. (:


Before I leave another blog post hanging (I started this post 2 hours ago and stopped typing), I shall stop here and continue another time.


(:


Love,
Me.