Another year older; Another year wiser

Finally 18.

This year is exceptionally different. This is the age that I've been looking forward to for a long time, the age that I'd love to be in for a long time. To be considered as an adult (in some instances if not 21), to be given the freedom in the hands of the law, to be able to watch M18 movies, to enrol for my long awaited car license, and unfortunately, to pay adult price for everything else.

Falling on the first day of exam, and going through a breakup, not the best situation to be celebrating my birthday.

Point is, the day is long gone.


When the clock strikes midnight on 19th November, it felt as though I'm living a new life. I feel I'm no longer being dragged through life; I feel that I can finally act my age. Living life to the fullest, as they say.


Getting out of a 5 year relationship at the current moment seems to be the most responsible action that I have done. I am sorry if you are reading this. But I do feel more of myself right now. For the past few months, I've wanted to get my life on track. With you in my life, I didn't know what track I was one. Which track I should take. Because I always had to think of you, and not of myself. Nothing I did was for only me. At least, I thought so.

It isn't easy to go to higher education, with all the pressure and the costs it take. Tuition fees, daily expenses, heavy debts. Not really something that is easy for a then 17-year-old.



It has been a week since an event which I really met people. Felt like a camp, since the last camp I went to was almost 2 years ago. A seminar to teach people how to have a millionaire mind. Haha. It was nice to get to know more people that I worked with. After years of feeling pushed into the dark, I finally felt like I was someone. Instead of that timid girl afraid of talking.

Meeting people of all walks of life. It makes me realise how much I have missed in my life. All the fun and laughter that I've missed. Through the massive life changing activities. I don't regret my actions that make me where I am right now, just that I feel lucky that I haven't went too far. I can still re-enact what should have happened. (:


Before I leave another blog post hanging (I started this post 2 hours ago and stopped typing), I shall stop here and continue another time.


(:


Love,
Me.

Blogging.

It has been more than 2 years since I last blogged. Since then, I knew that I have completely changed. For the better? For the worst? I hope starting anew helps. I hope expressing my thought and feelings; penning them down will contribute to the arrangement of my thoughts that are currently messed up. Also to improve my lack of language skills, to digress.


Opinions on blogging:

In my opinion, there are more advantages than disadvantages in blogging. It is a platform to express my thoughts, and hopefully get a decent comment. In my current situation, I strongly feel that my posts will be limited, due to the lack of time. And to not get carried away with this "online diary", I will set goals and ethical reasons as to why I am doing this.

1. To let my thoughts run freely --> to settle the arguments in my head
2. ....

I really can't think of anymore.
However I do beg of the people out there reading this, to read my posts with an open mind. Before judging or criticizing my words, think deeper into the whole situation.


Thank you.